Saturday 5 December 2015

My Reversion

So.

Like I said earlier I'm a revert to Islam.


I used to be Christian. Like *REALLY* Christian. You know, one of the really annoying happy clappy ones.


And then I met A. He was my taxi driver on a long journey back from a friends wedding. We really hit it off (I still think God works in mysterious ways), and became good friends. He's a none practicing Muslim- but anyway - He came over and he was showing me some stuff. Because he said  And I started thinking. How can one God be three things? How can God and Jesus be the same? It just doesn't make sense.


And if Christianity was the true religion...then why are there so many denominations? I mean even now, thinking about it...how can there be so many denominations? Surely, if Christianity WAS Gods unchanged word...surely every denomination would follow the same Doctrine? Because  different denominations have different versions of the bible, with minor changes...and in some cases, churches have added entire different doctrines to follow along with the bible. Different Churches focus on different aspects of Christianity, and ignore certain bits and, once I took a step back - I started to realise that you can't just pick and choose the parts of God you want to follow. It just doesn't work like that. You have to follow it all. And you have to follow the unchanged word...otherwise...otherwise you may as well be following nothing, because if you're following things that people have added, then in my opinion you're following mans word, not just Gods. 






So yeah. I started reading the Qur'an and everything that I felt was missing in my life as a Christian felt as if it just slotted into place. I wish I could explain in greater detail...but unfortunately I can't. It's indescribable. The Qur'an verse that actually tipped me was 23:12-14.



(12) Certainly We created man from an extract of clay. (13)Then We made him a drop of[seminal] fluid [lodged] in a secure abode. (14)Then We created the drop of fluid as a clinging mass. Then We created the clinging mass as a fleshy tissue. Then We created the fleshy tissue as bones. Then We clothed the bones with flesh. Then We produced him as [yet] another creature. So blessed is Allah, the best of creators!

I read that, and I don't know. It just hit me, it hit me that I'm reading an unchanged book, and that is *must* be a message from God...because otherwise how would something you can't see with the bare eye be known 1400 years ago? 
I don't know how to explain it...it just *clicked*, and with that I realised that I'm not a Christian.

So. I went into a stage of denial after that. I got my daughter baptised into the Church of England -because if I'm honest- the thought of reverting terrified me. Christianity was all I've known. I think that's why it was such a huge shock for my family when I finally caved and said the Shahada less than a month later! 

So there it is....my very boring reversion story! I apologise if anyone has had a variation of that in person...Early on in my reversion, I felt so under pressure I probably gave too much detail or missed bits out.